Unfairness Really Bothers Me

Oh my sweet friends, how I sometimes long for fairness and justice in a world that is so unfair. I've been this way since I was a small child but lately I have really been struggling with this due to the actions of a former colleague. I had a passion for my former job as it benefited cancer patients and their families and was the place my mom was treated. I LOVED this organization and wanted it to succeed beyond my wildest dreams. Yet this person crushed those passions. They treated me poorly the last few months of the job so I quit. My passion was still slightly there so I stayed on to volunteer for an event which many of my friends were helping with as volunteers. Yet this person had the audacity to walk away from a group of people when I approached and would not speak to me at anything related to the event. Then they sent me a generic, type written, form letter thank you card and did nothing to personalize it, yet could personalize some of my friends who were volunteers. I was appalled to not be thanked for the hard work I put in as a volunteer for the event but especially for all the work I put in as an employee the whole year leading up to it. And boy, that lack of thank you infuriates me.  I had worked at that organization longer than this person had and had lost my mom to that disease and this person can't even say thank you. Well, let me tell you what. I was pissed and am still fired up about it. I may have even dropped an f bomb or two, because that is NOT okay and such a slap in my face. 

After I left my job I let many people in charge know my reasons for leaving and let them know about this person's actions and how unfairly I had been treated. On my last day many managers and people in other departments told me they were glad I was to bigger and better things because this person did not deserve to work with a great employee like me. That was some vindication, but my conversations with those in power to change something did nothing. With this last mistreatment by this person, I thought of writing a letter to these same people in hopes this would be held accountable for their actions, but my sweet friends, I just couldn't. This is a battle I no longer want to fight because I am just tired of how unfair it is, and how unfair it will continue to be. It drives me crazy that people like this get away with treating others poorly time and time again, but there truly is nothing I can do. I don't have all the biblical answers for this but each time I get fired up about this or anything other unfairness in the world (do not get me started on how unfair it is that some horrible mothers get to enjoy their children's weddings and babies while my wonderful mom won't) I just try to rest in the fact that one day all will be made right now in the world when Christ returns and that we all have sinned and fall short of God's eternal glory. No one is perfect, therefore we will all do something unfair to those around us at one time or another. Hopefully we can acknowledge the unfairness and ask those we wronged for forgiveness and can forgive ourselves for hurting them. 

Isaiah 30:18 says,

 Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you;

    therefore he will rise up to show you compassion.
For the Lord is a God of justice.
    Blessed are all who wait for him!

So I will wait on the Lord. I will pray for peace when I feel myself or those around me have been treated poorly. I may say some bad words along the way, but I will wait and find solitude in Christ. Because the Lord Our God is a fair and just God and that has to be good enough for me at the end of the day when so many things seem unfair.