All the Single Ladies

Ladies, are you going through a quarter life crisis because you're still single? Do you think to yourself a lot, Hey, I'm pretty awesome, why I am spending my Friday nights alone with a glass of wine watching hours of Netflix? Are you concerned with how fertile you are? I know I am! And I completely blame New Girl for the fertile one. They had an episode dedicated to it, and it got me all freaked out. Now, you may think I'm crazy, (who is worried about how fertile they are at 24?!, crazy people, I know), but think I'm crazy it's totally fine, but I just turned 24 and my 10 year plan I made at 20 is NOT happening. I was supposed to be married at 25 with the first kid on the way at 27. Well I am 100% single, with ovaries that give me problems (shout out to all my ladies with ovarian cysts) and not anywhere close to marriage. [Enter panic attack here.] 

Now I know the old saying goes, "If you want to give God something to laugh about tell him your plans." Well I sure hope He's getting a good old chuckle because somedays my emotions can be summed up in the following pictures. (yes, they're all Jess from New Girl, but she sums up my life pretty well.) 

Sorry if you're offended, but it's funny.

I mean really, what if I had love and just threw it away because my standards are so high? 

Seriously what is love? Baby don't hurt me, no more. Okay that's a song. It poses a great question though!

I mean seriously, what is wrong with me? Why doesn't someone want to put a ring on my finger?

But then about 4.5 seconds later I'm just like, no wait, I'm 1000% awesome, these men just don't know a good thing when they see it. 

And you're probably thinking, come on Kaci, you don't want any man, you want the man God made for you. And you're darn right and I am trying so hard to trust God's timing and I know He has someone great in store for me. I am just impatient and tired of being single in a sea of friends in relationships. Literally, so many of my friends are dating, engaged or married. And sometimes I just feel this about them..... 

It's rude, I know, but sometimes it's just how I feel. And we can't help out we feel.

Also waiting for God's plans when you have an anxiety problem sometimes means having many emotional breakdowns and freak outs because you just want someone to hold your hand and go to the zoo with you. Seriously, that's all I want. To go to the zoo with a boy and have him hold my hand. Well, my standards are higher than that, but my wants in a relationship involve a lot of hand holding during outings. But that also makes me anxious because when I actually like a boy I get really nervous and overanalyze hand holding. Yes you read that correctly, hand holding. Just ask my friend MacKenna, (you don't know her so you can't, but trust me, she has gotten many phone calls about it). Ugh, anxiety is just the worst. Again, I just want to go to the zoo, look at the polar bears and hold hands. (yes, polar bears were added in, but they are my favorite animal and zoos have them)

Who doesn't want to see this awesomeness at the zoo? 

But at the end of each day, I want the person holding my hand to be the perfect guy God created for me. All the single ladies feel me on this? So I will continue to wait and pray and embrace my singleness. (more on that in another post.) But during the waiting it's gonna be a lot Netflix (New Girl and Mindy Project are my FAVE at the moment) and wine and dreaming of Aaron Rodgers. Well actually I dream of John Stamos a lot ….which is weird, but it happens often and I don't fully understand it but am 100% okay with it. Yes, if you are wondering he is my dad's age and they could go golfing together. Again, I don't fully understand it but it's real and I just embrace it. 

Seriously, he's so handsome.